A couple of years ago the bottom fell out of my world. Some stuff happened when I was younger and it had a massive impact on my life as the years went by.
I found I couldn’t cope and my depression started to spiral out of control, I was lonely and it was a very dark place to be in. I would move from house-to-house as I was never really settled. I’d stay in the new house for a few months and then I would literally try and find a new place to live in, it was chaos! I started to drink on a casual basis but it soon lead into deeper things with drugs and heavy drinking and also self-harming. Then I had to pay for these things and subsequently the debt letters started to mount up, I felt worthless and useless and felt I could never do anything right.
I started to lose everything that I held dearly in my heart, I fell in a pit and tried desperately to get out of it but on my own it all seemed impossible.
I was advised to phone the Helping Hands team to get support. I didn’t really think that they could make a big difference in my life however through my recovery I now know that is one of the best decisions I have ever made. I’ve heard the quote "Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day; teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime." Well, they have taught me to fish!! They didn’t offer me a quick fix, although I was offered food and household packs but they sat down and also offered me long-term solutions.
I was able to get help when I needed it and I’m forever grateful for that. Of course there has been consequences to my actions, which I have to work through right now, but with the help of other supportive people I’m sure that I will come out of it stronger. I'm delighted to say that my old lifestyle has completely gone.
Recently I have been on learning and development courses and a basic budgeting course. The basic budgeting course has really helped me to review my finances and budget on a week-to-week basis, and because of the course recently I have been able to save and go on a holiday.
If I can give something back to help others that are in similar situations then I’m more than happy to do that. I now work in with the Helping Hands team as a volunteer three days a week
If I could give a bit of advice to readers right now its this, please do not suffer in silence as there is plenty of help out there which you can get and it will certainly help you get through the trials that you are facing. If helping hands can’t help you they will signpost you to the right support. One thing that they try to do is to make sure that nobody is left alone and feel the way I did.
I am really and enthusiastic about the future and I am so excited about the new projects that we doing within the charity. I do hope to see some of you at some of the things in the near future. Jane